Personal Shit

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Feeling like a piece of crap right now. I was watching a show about people who have changed their gender (transgendered if you prefer, don't wanna offend anyone), and it's made me rethink some stuff. Most of them had felt they were the wrong gender when they were kids. I've only felt a little unsure since last year. Now I feel like my mom may be right and it's just a phase, but deep down I still disagree. But compared to the people on the show, I had a fairly "correct"(?) gender identity. Always knew I was a girl, played with girl toys, dressed in girl clothes, hung out with girls, etc. But I also did lots of "boy things" too, which gives me a little pause. But back then I never thought about being a guy, and now I feel really strongly about it. Which is confusing me even more. I feel like some weird in-between freak who doesn't belong in either gender. I don't fit in with guys or girls, though I tend to get along better with guys. And to top it all off, my 5 month-old kitten died last week, which has severely brought my mood down. Depression from that plus depression and confusion from my gender crisis makes me want to curl up on the couch and never do anything ever again.

**Some advice would really be helpful...